It Was Removed
Henrik believed that certain people did not want the book to remain available.
No clear explanation was ever given for why it disappeared, and copies gradually became increasingly difficult to find.
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Henrik Fitzen
Author. Everything else unconfirmed.
NameHenrik Fitzen
BornUnknown
StatusActive. Does not give interviews.
First recordA debut book, out of circulation within months of release.
Gap in recordSeveral years. No interviews, no photographs, no statements.
Current publicationI Had to Die Twice to Write This
Photograph
Archive statusIncomplete
Most of what is known about Henrik Fitzen comes from the work itself. Everything else has resisted verification.
The file stays open.
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A Reader’s Account
An Extremely Rare Copy of Henrik Fitzen’s Previous Book Was Found by a Reader
The book had been unavailable for years. The person who found it wrote about what he read and why parts of it still bother him.
I found this copy years after it had supposedly disappeared, and honestly I did not know what to expect. At first I assumed it was just some strange, forgotten book that had somehow gained a reputation over time.
But the more I read, the harder it became to treat it like something ordinary. There is something about the way it is written that feels unusually personal, almost like Henrik was trying to leave something behind rather than simply tell a story.
Some parts sounded so strange that I wanted to dismiss them, but then there would be a detail or a passage that felt too specific to ignore.
I still do not know what I believe about Henrik Fitzen, and I am not sure I am supposed to. What stayed with me was the feeling that he genuinely believed every word he was putting down.
By the time I finished it, I understood why people kept talking about the book long after it disappeared. I also understood why finding a copy felt less like buying an old book and more like coming across something that was never meant to be easy to find.
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The First Book
What Happened to the First Book?
No definitive explanation was ever given. Over time, three possibilities remained.
Henrik Removed It Himself
There is another possibility.
Henrik may have withdrawn the book himself after becoming increasingly uncomfortable with how much he had revealed.
If that happened, he never publicly explained why.
Something Happened to Henrik
Not long after the book disappeared, Henrik also withdrew from public view.
His posts stopped. His public presence faded. For years, almost nothing new appeared under his name.
Whether the disappearance of the book and Henrik’s silence were connected has never been clear.
Whatever happened, the book went out of sight. Henrik went with it.
A few rare copies are still out there somewhere. He came back on purpose.
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Why He Came Back
He Never Stopped Writing.
Henrik did not return because he wanted attention. He did not return because he wanted to become known.
He returned because he believed there were things he could no longer trust himself to remember.
After the first book disappeared, he continued writing privately. Notes became pages. Pages became records. Eventually, those records became something he believed needed to exist somewhere outside his own memory.
I Had to Die Twice to Write This became his attempt to leave everything in one place before he could lose it again.
“The story needed to exist somewhere outside my own memory.”
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In His Own Words
Before the book, there were the posts.
Shared publicly between March and April — before his profile disappeared.
Tap any post to read it in full.
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Unanswered
Some questions were never answered.
Why did the first book disappear?
Who wanted Henrik to stop writing?
Why did he remember lives that were never his?
What happened during the years he disappeared?
And why does he believe he had to die twice to write this?
No answers were ever given. Only the book.
I Had to Die Twice to Write This
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He Has Already Died Twice.
Henrik Fitzen remembers two lives before this one, and the way both of them ended. He is writing it all down now, before the memory fades again, the way it always has.
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Frequently Asked Questions
Is this the official Henrik Fitzen website?
Yes. This is the official website for Henrik Fitzen and his book, I Had to Die Twice to Write This. Every format available here, including the ebook, audiobook, and printed edition, comes directly from this source.
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Who can I contact if I need help?
You can reach out anytime at henrikfitzen@gmail.com.